bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Monday, July 26
all the muscial songs keep ringing in my head
great songs anyway
ms loh is really talented
even though i dun really like her
i must say that she is really good
sigh`school was pretty good today lah
i mean i get along well with almost everyone but
something seems missing
it kinda feels like i have no special friend
no one to tell all that i want to say
i dunno how to talk anymore
what can i do
everything i talk about is superficial stuff
its like nothing deep
nothing that i really feel
is it better
i think that i must really try to talk to God
and tell him everything that is bothering me
but i feel odd...its like talking to nobody
how can i feel God and hear his answers??
how Father
can You tell me how i can come to you
becos sometimes I feel like he isn't there and that he isn't hearing me
why do i feel this way
i sometimes feel too imperfect to stand before God and ask him and talk to him
becos well...he is God
I know what everyone says that God is all around
but sometimes I really can't help wondering why God would ever care about me
someone who is like on one of the smallest island in the world
in an almost insignificant school
has no wonderful heritage
no out-of-the-world gift....
but i'm reminded...that i am loved by the God of the universe
and that if he loved me enough to come down
before i even knew him
i sure everything is possible...
dear Father, help me find a special friend who loves you and someone who i can turn to in times of need
Thank You and may your will be done...not mine...
luv ya`
goodbye
9:20 PM