& Sunday, July 31
you feel most alone, in a crowd.its funny when you hear it.
you feel weird when mulling about it.
yet when you experience it, you agree with all your heart.
ouch.
pot calling the kettle black.
hearing too much ranting is irritating, so they say.
right i get it.
not that i can blog about it anyway. i know you read.
hur i'll still write it down somewhere. for the hope that some time later i will read it and scold myself for being so immature and childish.
it always feels that way doesnt it? sometimes it gets so bad i refuse to read previous entries. you feel like banging your head, curl up in a little hole, hide in bed, read a book or watch a show just so that you get out of reality. bahh i'm quirky.
change is good. change is good.
for in a ever-changing world, You are constant.
and that makes all the difference.
i can never know You enough. and i feel comforted, somehow.
You are too good. words cannot define You. people cannot define You.
Father how many times we try to put You in a box and place a big fat label on top.
Jesus You define Yourself.
by Your creation, sacrifice and love.
and You make all the difference :)
You give me hope.
i say it again.
writing is therapeutic.
sleepy:/
that's a good sign, really.
goodbye
11:59 AM
& Saturday, July 30
shao nian bao qing tian.
whee current favourite show:))
baozheng zhanzhao gongsunce.
whose line is it anyway
my all-time favourite show:))
ryan wayne drew colin.
friends
whenever i need a laugh :))
ross rachel monica chandler phoebe joey.
amazing race
because i love to travel.
roadblock detour fastforward yield elimination.
crime scene investigation
because dead bodies can talk.
grissom catherine warrick nick sara greg
love actually
because i believe in love.
gee i feel like watching it again.
goodbye
8:43 AM
&
yay you.boo you.
i.
dread
goodbye
7:58 AM
& Friday, July 29
yay Love.boo love.
lousy.
thanks nicole. you made yesterday better :)
goodbye
3:18 PM
& Tuesday, July 26
yay running.boo SPA.
apparently.
goodbye
8:25 PM
& Sunday, July 24
heh i'm blogging again. too much to say la.plus i intend to be good so shall blog-too-much now.
blog-too-little for rest of the week. yay balance:)
haha reminds me about what the speaker said this morning. about women liking to hear i love you everyday, and men wanting to say i love you once and for all. funny, we are.
i not weird. i not dao.
bleahh identity crisis.
want to know who's really weird. as in reallyreally weird.
none other than Ho Wei Kang.
all geniuses are weird, didnt you know that.
so anyway, he wrote and i quote.
Hi, (mass email)
Knowing how 'lazy to think' you guys are generally, you will probably leave someparts blank.
eg. if question says "perpendicular" and I don't even see the relevant dotproduct written down, then I see it as "no effort" from you!!
WORK! I will not tolerate anything else for this week.
sir, you work too hard.
sometimes i feel we dont deserve.
sleepy :/
goodbye
11:40 PM
&
come stay ouch ouch there's physics spa tomorrow. and i happily joined my brother in front of tv to watch ET with the best excuse ever i must help him with the clothes. yay go me.
i dont care about you. ouch.
it felt bad. reflection told me i started it, i was wrong. after all according to newton's third law, every action demands a reaction. physics aside, its true. grr i hate being so impulsive. is there any way you can detach your brain from mouth so that you can think properly before sprouting nonsense :( oh well we cant change no law, but we can change the reaction ayee. here's my another cheek.
(beat.)
(curtain)
i read a cool play cool-sister borrowed from a friend.
it was short.
it was about maths.
the girl is quirker than me. i enjoyed it very much thank you.
i really should read more. anyway due to the worldwideweb, i found out that it was actually staged. yaye:) shall save money and go visit her whereever she is, and blow all savings on plays and musicals. yesyes the airfare. bleahhh hurry budget airlines to the west!
did i tell you A Knight's Tale is a great show?
A Knight's Tale is a great show! funny sweet with crazy Chaucer.
i flipped open arty-sister's Chaucer lit book. -gotshot
Why grucchen we, why have we heviness,
That goode Archite, of chivalrie the flour,
Departed is with duetee and honour
Out of this foule prisoun of this lyf.
ohgoodnessme. am thankful for trigonometry for once:))
i enjoyed the church-camp-like game. what with a river and planks and stumps. haha that game was really cool :)
it rained. we shld go there again really.
goodbye
11:10 PM
& Saturday, July 23
its easy to disappear, i think.yay swimming.
cool sister ferried me around today thank you very much. she offered (note i didnt ask) to send me all the way to church. i requested for potong pasir mrt, but like i said, she offered:) it would be rude to refuse a request, dont you think :p
i wonder if someone asked me to throw all my certificates and achievements away. as in destroy burn shred drown acidify tear melt, remove it from the face of this earth. what would i say?
pause.
i would hesitate, i'm sure of it. gee i dont even have anything to be proud of. lets see i graduated from kindergarden(thankfully), PSLE, Os, grade 4 pass in piano. hur i nearly forgot chinese, yeah i'm proud of that. oh yes and a bronze in swimming. that's all, frankly i'm worth nothing. yet i still hesitate.
i'm afraid for the future suddenly. degrees honours masters PHDs scholarships. if i ever get there, what if i do more than hesitate. what if i refuse. i guess it's high time i question my intentions, search my heart. i'm biased, i'll think of myself better than i should. confirm one.
Search me, O God and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
psalm 139:23,24
even if no one ever asks me to throw them away, may i consider them rubbish. some things are more important, dont you think. people are more important. esther how often you forget.
goodbye
8:37 PM
& Wednesday, July 20
you know, a simple no would suffice.you dont believe in second chances.
you dont believe that people grow up.
what's worse, it seems like you dont believe in me.
open mind, so you say. i question.
i promise i wont, but i still question.
you confuse me.
next time before you talk, tell me if you want me to think like a grown-up or kid. i'll switch. probably save us both alot of trouble.
its never-ending. i dont understand.
its sad that even you do not care anymore. another
goodbye
8:39 PM
&
i will not succumb to pocky craze.i will not succumb to pocky craze.
i will not give in.
i want to read harry potter. really.
i thought i grew out of it when i saw Lord of the Rings. but no, i realised its hard to know the beginning of the story and be clueless about the end. just like it kills to have the last chapter of agatha christie torn from the book. just like its impossible not to watch tv when you know baoqingtian is gonna solve the case today. the feeling is identical, nasty.
i think i'll just ask.
i'm 17 yes?
don't worry i wont do crazy stuff like carve a scar on my forehead or daydream about studying in Hogwarts.
but if you say no, i wont.
i assure you, i dont believe in magic.
i believe in miracles though :)
i like to think that isn't true.
its sad that you dont care anymore.
i miss liwei and mingdao.
youth outings are different without them:(
sometimes i forgot that teachers are humans.
goodbye
1:11 PM
& Monday, July 18
haha thanks to gabriel, i now remember that i was hit on the head by a softball ball last thursday. so if ever i suffer from memory loss or a drop in IQ, you know why :p jokingggg. yay go softball! though the ball is far from soft, the game is cool :))alright listening comprehension is over! almost everything was screwed, yet EVERYTHING fell into place. it was a breeze, totally. am thankful that You listen to every single prayer, no matter how insignificant (like Jesus please make the radio sound better and not so ear-killing, i can't hear!) at the point when the music disappeared and chinese words started sprouting out of the speakers, i began to like that silly radio for once. every word was as clear as a end-of-period-bell is to me. truly Emmanuel :))
that was amusing.
i never realised how different things seem when you move from the outside to the inside. oh well i treasure the trust. since there's absolutely no time, maybe we should consider one of the greatest modern invention, the phone.
PW sucks.
but no one said your attitude should be likewise.
alright i'm gonna conquer you! when the time comes i'll sit on the written report, smile and take a picture, and know in my heart i gave it all.
but first, the attitude.
you know,
i'm reallyreally looking forward to the Puala Ubin trip.
-must prepare insect repellent or i'll suffer from loss of blood.
-start psycho-ing self i'm a mel. monstergoaway i'm a mel.
yay tv! i like chinese shows :) with subtitles.
goodbye
10:32 PM
& Sunday, July 17
they say a picture paints a thousand words. but we disagree, dont we :pheh POOh (: big brother.
thanks for teaching us all the PA knowledge and nittygritty buttons and knobs.
realised you forgot something though, err what is PA?
Professional Assistants
Pathetic & Available
Potential Assassins
we are clueless :p
for the love of God and music and daniel
we should do this again and again and again.
ok maybe not, lest i appreciate them a little less.
i dont want to.
for the love of family and cards.
for the love of subway and coffee and fellowship.
i thought of the perfect name. yay go me!
to save the trouble of saying
sister in uk, sister in singapore.
it shall be cool sister, arty sister.
hurhur this is pretty lame. but true nonetheless:)
pray i dont sleep during listening compre.
praypraypray.
goodbye
10:08 PM
& Friday, July 15
for a moment, i forgot what love is.
Love Crucified Arose.
yes i know now.
the walk, i enjoyed
need time alone badly, so walk i did.
more time, i wish
all the monuments were deserted, absolutely no one.
i suppose that was good, i had the whole place to myself.
so i went to both WW2 monuments, the Tan Kim Seng fountian.
walk walk walk stop read walk walk walk stop touch walk walk.
it renews the mind, the body and i hope, the soul.
i wish i had a camera. actually i had it in my bag.
no i was not lazy, there was a 6 photo limit see :)
it was a good day really.
you got me thinking, real hard.
more thinking equals more walks equals yay.
what an imperfect world. oh the problems of existence, making heaven oh-so-welcoming. i question myself, why do i fear. i'm afraid that i'm the only one, i'm afraid of many things. its hard to put your feelings into words, when you're not really clear what you feel. am slighty confused, a little scared, very ignorant, extremely blind, always loved. i'm still young is a tempting excuse, but it ain't right. belief comfort zone insecurities
a reminder that ain't new, when will you learn esther.
beneath all the laughs and smiles, we know it's serious.
we can do all the thinking, all the talking, all the planning. yet it wont mean anything unless we do something about it. i've allowed myself excuses, too many.
i've decided to stop doing this, and that. oh yes that too.
i hope i understood that correctly. that was really sweet:)) if only..
goodbye
11:36 PM
& Thursday, July 14
i just realised that if i go for geog field trip.i wont be in church for the first sunday of sept.
if i can, that is.
i do not like contradictions.
we can never have enough, can we.
why.
goodbye
9:24 PM
& Wednesday, July 13
i've been counting.1 day to chinese oral.
2 days to guitar farewell.
3 days to WEEKEND!
5 days to chinese listening compre.
14 days to temasek seminar.
26 days to dim sum dollies.
27 days to goodbye tee.
46 days to mummy's birthday
46 days to TMS!!!
48 days to geog field trip (?)
52 days to glorijoy's birthday.
55 days to lijun's birthday.
whywhywhy. note difference in date is 3 days. so i guess i'll ask them both.
to lijun: gloree's birthday coming! want to share.
to gloree: lijun's birthday coming! want to share.
and on the first sunday of september, i will
-buy the cake
-prepare the cake
-record sept babies on hand
-carry the cake to the front
-read the names from hand
-cut the cake
yaye i'm a good planner :))
69-79 days to goodbye jie
89 days to promos (?!?!?!)
298798270387 days to end of PW. -shudder
ok i exaggerate.
89-140 days to end of PW. -shudder
165 days to christmas.
172 days to 2006 = JC 2 = As:( = M18:)
negative 10 mins to baoqingtian
which means it started without me at the tv for once :p
___ days to my deathday.
i realise i can plan all i want, yet nothing is certain cos only You know that number. who knows it may be 0.5 or 1 or just before their birthdays.
to live with eternity in mind
to live for things of eternal importance
Father i pray.
should numbers be wrong. please pardon and take into account a baoqingtian show in the next room. people fumble when they hurry. cheers(:
goodbye
10:45 PM
& Tuesday, July 12
that was a scary email.i'm kinda freaked out.
i'm blogging to irritate glori
and to pressure her to go this friday.
if you dont go, i wont. :p
lijun!
go see jennifer's photoblog!
ifwecouldspeak.
its really pretty (:
ahem we beat gloree who is so un-jigsaw:)))
gabriel:
thanks! anyway pardon my daoness on the way to sch,
i'm usually still half asleep.
cheers!
in His time, in His time
He makes all things beautiful.
in His time.
baoqingtian is like now!!
yaye!!
no sleeping in geog tutorial anymore
stella has spies :p
goodbye
5:40 PM
& Monday, July 11
yay i'm home.now no one will ask me
why you look so different? did you cut your hair?! :p
why does the clouds always seem to mirror how my day went?
the sky was incredibly cloudy today.
but i thank God for this day,
the day after the extremely eventful day of 10 july 05.
bombs were dropped time and time again yesterday, be it family friends God.
i have much to learn, too much.
in times of plenty, in times of need.
in times of joy, in times of sorrow.
to be content. i need to learn :)
this song kept running through my head the entire day.
haha maybe its because of jeremy's ringtone :p
i have no idea what the words are, except
not because of who i am
but because of what You've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who You are
i am a flower quickly fading; here today and gone tomorrow
a flower i knew just faded.
gone from the earth, safe in heaven, safe at His feet, safe in His arms.
He put me where He wants me to be yet again, how often have you strayed.
esther that's enough reminders already, dont you think.
He's ever so patient, wont you learn.
goodbye
8:40 PM
&
nose please stop running :/bleahh can you imagine doing physics spa practice sniffing the whole way. and i've bought 6 packets of tissue from the bookstore uncle already.
wow what a great day. i hate SPA. its like i always do what shouldnt be done, and conveniently omit what has to be done. yay go me. i cant wait for the real SPA to come where i can get a negative mark and fail my physics in As. then i can go be a farmer or something since a degree is out of the question :p
too many things to say. beyond blog-words.
so i guess i'll just keep to myself and go talk to something which will never suffer from a slip of the tongue.
ok my rantee must also be brainless so that the words are only heard, not listened. hmmm hello pillow, mogu cushion, couch. oh hello tree :))
i've been thinking and thinking and thinking (yes i think in case you wondered :p) figured that my choleric self has been too
the case of the missing memory card.
agnes can really drive.
quote paul:
all lady drivers should drive like agnes.
i second that! note the word "park" does not exist in that statement.
haha my sister is so cool:)))
can you believe it i slept during chinese listening comprehension.
i was almost dreaming when i woke up and found out that i missed 1.5 passages. sigh i'm really getting sick. better sleep early tonight, where early = after bao qing tian :P
yay GP is next. we're gonna finish the cool show with a sucky name. then HOME!
chinese compo
chinese zhou ji
chinese worksheet
3 maths tutorials
1 physics tutorial
PW :((((
all the best esther!
goodbye
12:48 PM
& Sunday, July 10
i'm leaving on a jet plane,don't know when i'll be back again.
i love armageddon(:
everyone is leaving. i wonder when i'll be the one.
i guess that will never happen.
oh well joshua just called me to get ready.
and here i am blogging. go me(:
i need a gu-niang bag. but agnes is sleeping.
i guess i'll do without.
i dont agree, sorry
i was supposed to do homework
and here i am blogging. go me(:
yeah go eric bana------
whatever the rest of his cool name is(:
this is so random.
goodbye
3:35 PM
& Friday, July 8
whee go chinese!! smilesmilelaughgrin:)))can you believe it, i passed my compo?!?! which i crapped about how the 5 day week rule changed my life :p want the truth? it didnt. haha who cares anyway(: that happens like once in a million years, i tell you.
thank You, cos its only by Your grace.
Jesus,
God of languages.
God of numbers.
God of crazy demand and supply graphs.
God of inselburgs, castle-koopies and karst.
and as lijun would put it,
God of every atom.
God of the universe(: whee Jesus You totally rock my world!
today is a great day. it just is.
i dont like listening in to 98.7fm in the mornings anymore. they switched the djs around:( sigh morning madness's not the same without daniel ong who is extremely lame and funny. therefore i have said goodbye to the radio and hello to an additional half-hour sleep. tried to do a little trigo homework on the bus (i was supposed to have finished it yesterday but obviously i didnt, hmm i wonder why :p) anyway the attempt totally failed cos i was nodding off. go sleep!
during assembly, felicia and yvonne told nicole and i that they bought us something. being the sceptic that i am, i naturally questioned why. i mean who could be so nice and give presents out of the blue other than dearest lijun and esther? of course being the sharp person that i am, i hit the nail on the head! why buy us presents?! must be something to do with my height right?! -.-
and yes it was. haha it turned out to be the yamyam biscuits, you know the one where you can dip the biscuit stick into chocolate or strawberry. they bought the regular one for themselves and nicole, and they got me the short one. bleahhhhhh. lol that was really funny! sigh we should have taken a photo. anyway thanks for the present!
i nearly died during maths, from laughing that is.
mr ho: if only you put this creativity and energy into doing maths, i bet you all will get your As.
hahahahahaha it was hilarious.
mr ho said that some of us walk past him and treat him as if he were glass. oh well i'm guilty of that. but frankly how can you greet a teacher who treats you as if you were glass when you walk past him as well?! anyway as i was going home, i met him along the corridor so naturally i greeted him
esther: Good Afternoon Mister Ho (loudly)
mr ho: you another one arh (smiles)
lol today has been highly entertaining and i'm gladdd :))
got an email from ms tham about some geog lecture for every geog student in singapore. she forwarded the letter to us so i spyyyed for stella's name, while jane spyed for her geog teachers.
heh dont you think lihui is so un-stella. maybe its just me :p
i guess some people never realise how their actions can greatly affect someone else. myself included. i ask for wisdom, Father :)
goodbye
4:10 PM
& Wednesday, July 6
ms tham: esther why are you so sleepy?esther: er bao qing tian?
i have been incredibly sleepy since forever, where forever = port dickson.
there's too much to do at night.
let's see, internet talktoagnes baoqingtian books.
so due to indulgence in the moon-on-forehead-charcoal-man show, i have permanent eyebags. sigh the show is reallyreally good, improve chinese :)))
two important updates!!
#1 gloree answered my sms o_0
in a record time of 17 mins. everyone cheer! i couldnt believe my eyes, nearly fell out of my chair when i saw her name. ok fine i'm exaggerating a litttllle. heh hope bio went well for you gloree:) i didnt do any tutorial anyway, and i'm still alive much to your dismay i'm sure:)) haha go crown collectors! not for us, but for Him. not to compete, but to glorify Him with joy. <3
#2 subway in school!
i mean the food place of course. when i first told my parents they asked from where? lol that was so funny. even though the council is still working on it, i dunno why but i got a really strong feeling we're gonna get it. YAYE!
ok there's some pre temasek seminar workshop in like 3 mins. gotta run cos ho wei kang is one of the teachers-in-charge. esther dont sleep dont sleep!!
2115
i'm tired:( but there's bao qing tian so i'm staying up!
anyway i watched this really cool show today:)) i love GP lessons with shows, maybe the government should consider having half of GP lessons watching them, i assure you i will do very well. so equilibrium is a great show with a horrible title, the title does not do the show justice i tell you. we're not done yet so next GP lesson is show time again. alright!!
temasek sem workshop was pretty cool. felt like social studies again because its so singapore-government-is-the-best, but i enjoyed myself and cant wait for the real seminar:))
yeah london won the bid! was hoping for paris though but i'm fine with london. agnes says she wants to go there at 2012, i wanna go too! oh man i'll be 24 when 2012 comes, if i dont die before it that is. that is like so old(but not as old as stella is now of course :P) ok london fund starts today!
goodbye
2:52 PM
& Tuesday, July 5
God is good and we'll praise Him, no matter what happens how incredibly easy it is to say that. how tough it is to say it after you see the result. i realised it works both ways. when the bad happens, how hard it is to praise Him with all my heart. when the wonderful happens, how hard it is to praise Him with all my heart without telling myself yea i did it. I did it!
how hard it is.
Father give me a pure heart that follows wholly after Yours.
thank You for grace i dont deserve.
it really really wasnt my best.
goodbye
6:15 PM
& Monday, July 4
today was such a great day, no wonder it ended so soon.heh cleaning was fun today. maybe its because i quickly cleaned up my toilet and table before mummy saw it, or maybe its because i could escape earlier cos i was meeting lijun for lunch. whatever the case i enjoyed it very much thank you. little brother and i had a mighty fun time zipping around the car porch due to insanely soapy soap (we ran out of floor cleaner so had to use the laundry one :P) and then he went to hid behind the pillar when the rubbish truck came because he wanted to look mature and not be seen scrubing the floor on his knees. i nearly died laughing :)))
YEAH subway again. i love lijun(: thanks for making the hols so super fun for me. we met so many times and i thank Him for every single one. i thought about what you said about how the way we view ourselves changes with the company, the more i think about it, the more i agree. heh self-esteem must be balanced, not too little not too much. alright enough of serious stuff, lest you think that our time together is so solemn. ninety-nine percent of the time, we are crapping and laughing and laughing and laughing, i assure you (:
stella is sooo indecisive! but thankfully she made the right decision and came to meet us anyway. of course it is a right decision from our point of view so i suppose it doesnt matter. tickets were totally sold out, which was a good thing(: cancel movie debt from previous entry, figured that there are so many more meaningful stuff you can do instead of spending money to pay people who do not need the money to watch something that usually goes against what is right. so if ever i say i need a movie, pinch me and remind me of 4th july. had a really great time at the food court where we spent like 2 hours. heh that was fun except i was feeling a little whoozy and headachey when we left. thanks stella for the treat at cafe cartel! even though the chicken wings were insanely uncheap. bleahh. we havent finished the convo right?! it feels like we left it hanging with no conclusion whatsoever. oh well so now we have salvation part 2, cafe cartel convo part 2. and a million updates needed from everyone. sigh i resent busy, what happened to time we used to have.
plus outing with family to orchard:)) yaye!
federer won by the way.
goodbye
11:53 PM
& Sunday, July 3
parachute of finest quality -made in heaven, woven by Godif ever i forget, dont forget about the hammer i placed in your hands.
just like i wont forget the hammer i have in mine.
and we will jump.
goodbye
11:50 PM
&
SLEEP!i got a huge debt, which i am intending to pay off this week. hee its so exciting paying off a sleep debt. no must include a movie debt, tv debt, book debt blahblahblah. you know i have sooo many books i have to finish, and yet i walked into toa payoh library that day for 15 mins, i came out with 4 books. can you believe it FOUR! well i cant.
arrgh esther selfcontrol! anyway jane and i busted the gameboy card(whatever you call it) with almost all the good games so that's one less thing that will distract me from tutorials and books. i guess we'll never conquer klax and bomberboy ever. thankfully i'm done with mario(even though it turned out to be such a disappointment :P)
you must read this!
dean koontz, by the light of the moon
high-speed jigsaw is a pastime best undertaken by an individual who is suffering from subtle brain damage and who consequently is afflicted by intense and uncontrollable spells of obsession.
ohmygoodness!! haha this is so funny. i was reading this passage on the way to church on sat. had i not been in a mrt full of people, i assure you i would burst out laughing with a volume greater than Sharapova in a tennis match. but of course i didnt want to embarrass myself so i just smiled. and made a mental note to tell lijun and blog about it. hee i've done both :)))
oh yes i did the worst thing ever today!!
i showered with my contacts on again! and i realised it only after i was done. ohmygoodness i was so afraid it went down the drain again i kept covering one eye after another to make sure everything was still clear. better put up signs on the toilet door, on the shower screen and on the tap. ESTHER REMOVE YOUR CONTACTS! i'm too broke to cough out another 100 bucks. if this happens again, i'll do without.
encounter is over! i had a really fun time yesterday, except i was really zonked out after that. but my voice is still here, praise You Jesus! for everyone who came, for every song we sang, for every heart You touched. all for YOU!
worship prac was pretty cool today. since the PA have the slackiest job during the prac itself, lijun and i decided to complete the doodles stella made on the masking tape. then we decided to keep it and compile a whole stack of masking-tapes-with-doodles for memories sake. and fine, for daniel too :) UBER COOL! oh yes plus the GLORY counter with a 9999 goal. sigh the things you do when you're bored. thanks laysiang for the extremely informative convo on blood types. hee you rock!!
i hope federer wins.
i hope i remember that there are tutorials to be done.
i hope the floor would be not too dirty tmr
i hope stella can make it tmr.
i hope for a good sleep and no weird/scary dreams.
i know He loves me, and i'll commit all my hopes in prayer.
<33
goodbye
11:15 PM
& Saturday, July 2
i am supposed to be tired but i'm not.not tired as in my eyelids dont feel heavy.
physically mentally and throatally i'm exhausted.
oh well i cant go to bed till my hair dries so i might as well blog and read national geographic.
well the week that i thought would never end has ended. academic part that is. exciting part of week is coming in like 18 hours = 18 x 6o mins = 18 x 60 x 60 secs.
esther stop thinking about physics!!
exams are crazy. they squeeze the brain juice out of you with insanely intense papers that last 3 hours. oh well i must be thankful for the opportunity to study. because it is only through education that women have a higher status in society, that they will not rely on a husband for financial support blahblahblah i can go on for years. this is so geography i know but it reminds me how bad it is to complain about studying when people yearn to but simply do not have the chance. how often we forget.
my throat really really hurts:(
heh mingdao is so cool! because he likes whose's line is it anyway too!(then again who doesn't :P) i really love wit! and looking at the way mingdao is going, he'll probably be able to be another Wayne Brady, Colin Mochrie and Ryan Stiles! ohh the show's on again tomorrow morning! YAY:)))
ok now i'm getting whoozy and zombified. not that i wasn't when i met lijun for dinner. i spend so much time with mode, half of the whole june holidays i tell you. i cant remember the last time i ate with gloree, someone enlighten me please. so anyway lijun and i met for dinner and went to church to complete a 108 winniethepooh jigsaw puzzle in 10.29 mins! jamie thinks that is super slow:/ on the contrary i am quite proud of us.
jamie wrote a sweet goodbye note to us which started like this:
TO: ESTHER, EVAN & LIJUN
heh its in alphabetical order again right?! haha thanks for your pet rock, especially enjoyed the highly amusing story of you being tricked by tiffany and buying regular gum at a pharmacy.
funny quote by lijun who said she's losing her sense of humour.
paul(i think) made one of his random remarks as usual.
esther: are we supposed to laugh?
lijun: tickle me!!
hahahahahahah that was so funny. though i dont think i can laugh without my voice cracking.
argh voice dont die on me!! and esther please please cure your bad temper, you're making me angry!
ok i almost dozing. goodmorning!
goodbye
1:51 AM
& Friday, July 1
for the love of memories
when God created me, He put both of you under the category BLESSINGS.
love (: