bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Friday, October 28
FINALLY.
geog pictures are ready.
man i had to redo the captions like 3 times because shutterfly refused to save it.
yay its done:))
cheers to seven grade pigs and rocks!
thank you eugene,
well it's getting better!
we had a second meeting with my teacher yesterday, and he said there was a huge improvement. yay! haha maybe its because we prepared properly this time. cheerios :)
goodbye
9:49 PM
& Wednesday, October 26
hohum.
we're finally done with the slides of OP, unless mr lee banishes it to the garbage dump again.
then it's all over again. sigh please don't, i'm tired of scrolling up and down at gettyimages.
well i'm finally done with my script for OP. and after this, i shall get to my room, dive under my comfy blanket and time myself. oh please let it be 5 mins, i got 943 words plus i talk really fast. hmm.
ok now i'm sick of the phrase "fruits and vegetables"
another OP rehearsal tomorrow. 2/5
Jesus help me.
oh yes, i lost my IC.
think it's around the house somewhere, i'm just clueless where.
sheesh.
goodbye
11:30 PM
& Tuesday, October 25
i just realised there's something so much baddderr than wr.
Oral Presentation.
crap stage fright.
i am just gonna stand there, stare at all the strangers in the room and..
sheesh.
wonderful, i'm dead.
miss you.
goodbye
9:13 PM
& Wednesday, October 19
i'm tired, dog tired.
well, WRITTEN REPORT : DONE.
i cannot say how happy i am, hearing the irritating hum of the printer beside me.
i cannot say how relieved i am, seeing the nice white paper destroyed by ink bearing a certain pattern, they call it alphabets i think. and the language, eingrishh. whatever you call it.
oh now this little box appears on the computer screen. the device is out of paper. load more paper, then press continue when ready. it stopped at page 26. total number of pages? 43.
GRINGRINGRIN.
oh finally, no more waking up at 4 am to print drafts to show teacher which would definitely come back with huge red patches and random scribblings.
good, this week.
enjoyed monday with level5s and a twentyfiver, who is obsessed with quill (how do you spell that? that sad jap dog show) into the blue was crap, as bad as seafood and dragonfruits. but i enjoyed the company very much :)
dear evan,
as i am typing this, you're in cool aussie. i wish i were there too instead of being stuck here with peedoubleYOU, and hua wen. LOL take care my dear! oh no, forgot to ask you to get a rock! anyway ye shu hui bao hu ni de! er how do you say cheers in chinese? YAM SENG!!
enjoyed tuesday with cool sixoners and cool sixoners. LOL we baked cupcakes! which were fantabulous and YUMMY. cheers to nicole for being such a fantastic host, for graciously opening up her house. funfunfun:) heh we planned this littlelittle treasure hunt for feli who finally turned 17. haha we should do this again. i know we can have a PW-IS-OVER party. anyway it's gonna be over real soon, thanks to manyi we're done on the 7th!
oh yes, the 16PF test.
some personality thing which was pretty accurate and made me think.
some results were shocking, some were expected, some were hilarious.
vocational orientation (of 10)
investigative : 8
conventional : 8
social : 3 (sighsighsigh)
personality factors (of 10)
warmth : 2 -.-
emotional stability : 3 ?!!?!?!?!
apprehension : 9
privateness : 9
perfectionism : 8
tension : 7
haha the rest were boring.
oh well, according to the report, i need to visit a SHRINK. i was like, c'mon i'm not that bad right?! then i realised like a million people had that line that hints that professional counselling is needed. so we concluded that this is a sales gimmick. anyway according to the analysis, singapore students are more emotionally unstable than our counterparts in america. wheeeegrrrrheeheehee*%#$@. LAUGH
alright i'm done printing!
YAY :] dream africa
goodbye
9:25 PM
& Sunday, October 16
sheesh i'm tired of feeling so bad immediately after words sprout out of my mouth.
i flare up at every single thing. even when it's like totally my fault. i'll just explode at that person, give them the face and the what-the-hell voice. and if i think that person is misunderstanding me or whatever, the only thought in my head is esther defend yourself! dont let no one bully you! and so it happens all over again. the face and the what-the-hell voice. and then i'm the bully, and i feel bad and gross. i wont say sorry. help :(
i'm sick of it. i think pride is the worst of the 7 deadly sins or whatever that list is. sloth is next.
dear pride, you're my nemesis. go awayyyy.
i wish a pause button exists on my forehead. then i can press it whenever i feel angry or irritated. that few moments would change my actions totally i know.
arrghhh.
Jesus help :((
goodbye
12:31 AM
& Wednesday, October 12
just read. readreadread.
3.5 books in 3 days. not enough.
3 different genres, like 3 different dreams back to back and you have no idea where one ends or begins. like 3 different games and you jumble the rules. like 3 different worlds.
a satire, which was utterly depressing.
i dont have to name the book, how many satires are popular and easy enough for me to know and read. not many.
a half flick half inspirational totally fiction story. i repeat story. not that i read flicks, not that i experienced whatever emotions this book is meant to evoke to make me love life blahblahblah . well it contained a simple truth that i wished could be drummed into my head and transfused into my blood and hammered on my heart -beauty aint nothing, without character to back it up. besides it was an easy read. a weird story with good intentions, and a touching author's note. i half-enjoyed it.
an all time favourite mystery. because agatha christie never fails. because i have totally given up on solving any of her mysteries. because she doesnt write about murders, she writes about human nature. because i never want to put the book down the moment i start. because i love the frightful feeling i get after i'm done with the book, and i wonder whether someone's hiding behind the curtain or if someone's hiding in the toilet. because i like the language, English english. whahaha :)
a half-finished hmmm. i am clueless about its category. it's supposed to make you think, make you sympathise, make you sad, make you hurt. another depressing book, i do not really like depressing books actually. which is why i'm glad it's just a book, i can just shut it. BUT i like to think, and i would like to go on to my next book which i wouldnt do until i'm done with this one, so i shall continue and see if the ending is as sad as jane makes it out to be. that was an incredibly long sentence, dont tell my english teacher.
this is weird, i writing about what i read. queer.
in any case, i'm glad i listened to the little voice in my head.
or what most people would call it, conscience.
hm, it wasn't easy. that decision.
not that it was incredibly hard, because it felt like i knew what decision i was gonna make already, i knew it was gonna be the right one. and at the moment of decision, i was just one step from making that choice.
not that it was easy, oh temptation and the amazing peer pressure.
haha they didnt mean it, i know :)
i thought about it.
i wondered why going for guitar practice and going through it didnt seem half as bad as i thought it would. and i wondered why i had this nagging feeling that i wouldnt enjoy myself had i stayed.
wow, finally something i did that would make Him proud, it feels like it's been a long time. maybe it has.
the never-ending wrestle.
i wish it'd stop.
and i promise not to take painkillers next month.
cos you are NOT a wimp.
goodbye
10:46 PM
& Thursday, October 6
math is all about consistency.
thank you sir for reminding. againn.
i mean it never fails to kill,
it never fails to give weird questions that you've never seen in your entire life even though you tried to do the tys. and past papers. and tutorials.
it's amazinggg. no no you teachers are amazing.
i admire your brains, the way you pull out questions from the air.
somehow it feels like you've been generating these questions for the entire year.
i can almost imagine the scene.
you're in the canteen, just bought the huge bowl of noodles.
you walk to the table near the fruit stall.
you probably sit opposite or beside or at least share the same table with the principal who's always at the canteen.
and then you eat and talk and gossip about students and eat and talk..
suddenly, some HUGE brainwave just pop.
you freeze. fellow humans at table raise their eyebrows.
you go. OMG I JUST THOUGHT OF THE TOUGHEST MATH QUESTION.
your lovely prinicipal nods her head with approval. gooddd she says.
and you feeling all happy, continue eating.
but you dont talk anymore, you just rehearse the question over and over in your head.
you dont want to lose a single word, a single trick. a single TRAP.
LOL.
i still love math :))) really!
sheesh physics. i'm barely hanging already.
ONE, just one more day of torture.
gjoy's done already. go away greeneyemonster. shooo.
till tomorrow!
if i dont spent the entire day on the bed or in front of the black box, that is.
goodbye
1:46 PM
& Wednesday, October 5
pushed the blinds, peered.
looking for the little rumble from the sky.
was it?
couldnt find the cross
did the little trees in the little backyard grow?
couldnt find the moon.
if i can see it, you can see it.
we're nearer, dont you think.
stared at the red sky, redredred
i remember the little line in that little textbook.
red sky in the night, a sailor's delight.
wow tomorrow's gonna be good, voice in my head
i felt it in my bones.
i went right back to london and plates
i couldnt find no rumble.
it rained today.
so much for seaman's delight.
who ever said rain is bad.
dream mexico.
goodbye
1:26 PM
& Tuesday, October 4
when stuffing crazy stuff into your brain doesnt work no more,
create.
scary econs.
oligopoly - barriers to entry.
product complexity
product poliferation
product recognition
CPR. because we're dying.
external economies of scale.
economies of concentration
economies of information
economies of disintegration
CID. :]
internal economies of scale.
technical
managerial
marketing
financial
tmmf.
er that's hardly a word. well its symmetrical except for the curly thing on the last letter.
that's how i remembered it anyway. OH WELL econs is done!! :DDD
eugene,
no of course its not for GP, by the time i read any comment for that post. GP's done already!
well, if i feel like talking or listening or sociable. there you have the comment button :)
simple.
some people just dont say hello.
join the club.
goodbye
8:14 AM
& Saturday, October 1
mug : a fairly large cup for drinking from, usually with straight sides and a handle, used without a saucer.
mug (2) : the face of a person
mug (3) : a person who is easily deceived.
mug (4) : to attack and rob somebody violently, especially in a public place.
mug (5) : to try to learn something, usually in a short period of time for a special purpose
muggins : a person who is made to look stupid, eg by being tricked to do something he/she doesnt want to do.
muggy : (of weather) warm and damp in an unpleasant day.
mug shot : a photograph showing somebody's face, usually a criminal.
well there you have it!
what we ALL are doing, muggins we are.
jokinggg.
we're not muggers, just procrastinators :]]
and
thank You for parents who love each other and all their children.
because i wouldnt want to come home if yall didnt.
new favourite word : PUKKA.
rhymes with puma :)))
goodbye
11:23 AM