bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Saturday, July 23
its easy to disappear, i think.
yay swimming.
cool sister ferried me around today thank you very much. she offered (note i didnt ask) to send me all the way to church. i requested for potong pasir mrt, but like i said, she offered:) it would be rude to refuse a request, dont you think :p
i wonder if someone asked me to throw all my certificates and achievements away. as in destroy burn shred drown acidify tear melt, remove it from the face of this earth. what would i say?
pause.
i would hesitate, i'm sure of it. gee i dont even have anything to be proud of. lets see i graduated from kindergarden(thankfully), PSLE, Os, grade 4 pass in piano. hur i nearly forgot chinese, yeah i'm proud of that. oh yes and a bronze in swimming. that's all, frankly i'm worth nothing. yet i still hesitate.
i'm afraid for the future suddenly. degrees honours masters PHDs scholarships. if i ever get there, what if i do more than hesitate. what if i refuse. i guess it's high time i question my intentions, search my heart. i'm biased, i'll think of myself better than i should. confirm one.
Search me, O God and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
psalm 139:23,24
even if no one ever asks me to throw them away, may i consider them rubbish. some things are more important, dont you think. people are more important. esther how often you forget.
goodbye
8:37 PM