bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Monday, August 22
it was a bad day to start the week, totally.
frankly i thought i grew out of it, but no.
that feeling is still as raw, as intense as ever.
painful, really.
i kept asking,
what do you do if trusting is the hardest thing to do.
it is so insanely hard, i cant do this alone.
the worst part about this whole thing,
you know that whatever you're thinking about is not important at all.
it is so self.
you know so well, yet you fall again.
oh well tomorrow will be better, cos He promised He will never leave me alone.
it is so ironic, how many times did we sing the song trust His heart.
what about in His time. sigh esther. head knowledge vs heart knowledge.
it never changes, does it.
i did tms today. [yes glorijoytanshien (buddythatwillmakemylifemorepainful), pray for the heart, only the heart] 4 verses and 1 chronicles. we'll try our best alright!
you dont read the bible for God.
you dont memorise verses for Him.
i guess we do it for ourselves, that when things happen His word will be a source of comfort and refuge. when people question, we wont falter.
just like today, He answered my question, even before i asked.
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is, His good, pleasing and perfect will.
Romans 12:2
favourite tms verse, number 2 :)
my dear child, you are so small. you cant see what happens in the next milli-second, I can see eternity. I made eternity. I, eternity.
I am good, I am faithful, I love you. that's all you need to know, in your heart.
goodbye
11:40 PM