bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Sunday, October 16
sheesh i'm tired of feeling so bad immediately after words sprout out of my mouth.
i flare up at every single thing. even when it's like totally my fault. i'll just explode at that person, give them the face and the what-the-hell voice. and if i think that person is misunderstanding me or whatever, the only thought in my head is esther defend yourself! dont let no one bully you! and so it happens all over again. the face and the what-the-hell voice. and then i'm the bully, and i feel bad and gross. i wont say sorry. help :(
i'm sick of it. i think pride is the worst of the 7 deadly sins or whatever that list is. sloth is next.
dear pride, you're my nemesis. go awayyyy.
i wish a pause button exists on my forehead. then i can press it whenever i feel angry or irritated. that few moments would change my actions totally i know.
arrghhh.
Jesus help :((
goodbye
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