bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Tuesday, November 1
hm. chinese is over
and this is really the last chinese exam i am gonna take in my whole entire life. i said the EXACT same thing after the chinese exam last year. and look where my words got me. -amfickle.
oh well, it's a little sad.
feels like you spent almost your whole life slogging over something, cursing it all the time, wishing it'll disappear. and then BOOM. its OVER. how sad. you think i'm crazy, i bet.
so now, there's nothing to do.
other than read and watch tv, its reading and staring at the screen of that seriously-overused-box, wishing something interesting would come up. and when i say interesting, i mean shows like love actually, all the xmens, any russel crowe denzel washington johnny depp show. bahhh there was nothing interesting today. so i ended up watching LOTR. the return of the king. yay aragorn boo legolas. oh i skipped all the come on mr frodo parts. it's like here-comes-frodo-where-is-the-forward-button?
the mirror. it's changing.
i almost said degenerating, yet i realised its past wasnt something to be proud of either.
breaking up. a broken reflection.
maybe it'll get better, maybe it wont.
some things, time just refuses to mend.
feels like a raw wound oww.
some places, you just cant fit in.
like the market we went to today.
i havent been in a wet market in AGES. and i stuck out like a sore thumb. dialets flying across my head, i wish i understood. no matter where i stood, i'm disturbing the famillar routine, destroying the awesome feeling. i am so not expressing it right. we, the supermarket generation. sigh we're losing egg stalls, coffee stalls, the stalls that sell beautiful veges. we're trading it for huge air-conditioned rooms, tons of plastic bags boxes cartons. everything instant, everything threeinone. :(
some events, you just cant escape.
like going back to your secondary school. i have to go back, i dont want to but i must. ohwell, at least i get a free hemmingway.
like clearing the garden. we've procrastinated long enough.
like painting some random walls outside the house. oh this i'm not dreading. WOOHOO. how cool is that, i should get overalls boots and a lovely cap. painting with my dad is gonna be oh-so-fun!
little brother's in china.
old sister's in uk.
thankfully papa's in singapore this week.
otherwise there's like 3 people at home. so BORRINGG.
its weird, i like to be left alone at home. but i dont like being the only one at home.
HMMMM.
goodbye
8:49 PM