bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Wednesday, July 12
it's scary. i'm supposed to be strange, created to be different. why dont i feel like a sore thumb. called to be a light, yet i'm blending into the darkness. something is wrong. i'm not doing enough. then again, when can anyone reach enough?
in yesterday's show, a 1980s clip was shown of Ellen doing her stand up thing. she talked about a conversation with God, a telephone conversation. reason being she wanted to ask Him why He created fleas. so it went something like that, if my memory does not fail me. one-sided convo, of course.
'Hi God!'
'it's ellen'
'ellen'
'um ellen degeneres'
'ya it does sound like that doesnt it, i hear that alot. haha'
'ohh dont worry about it, i'll wait'
pause. starts to sing 'onward christian soldier...'
'hello You're back!
'ya i was just singing to the tape'
'oh someone was at the gate, i see'
'okay i wanted to ask you a question'
'hurhur bet You knew that already'
'ummm why did You create fleas'
-long pause
'wow i never knew so many people were employed by kill-flea agencies'
'right of course, the amount of people needed to produce sprays is huge'
'i understand now, thanks alot!'
'sure i dont mind a joke'
'who's there?'
'god who'
'ahh godzilla. um haha'
'ya not too funny'
'how 'bout i tell You a joke'
'knock knock'
'god'
got to go now'
'yes i know You saw that coming. hahaha'
'see Ya!!'
it was funny, really. way funnier than this. i cant remember most parts, and her word usage is incredible. yet at the same time, not really accurate dont you think.
You will never ask me for my name, nor my surname. You'll know who i am before i speak a word. You'll never put me on hold, in fact it's always the other way round. and the tape of my life and my words is nothing like that song. most of the time, i dont want You to hear it. but You do, even the words that do not come out from my mouth. of course, i'm sure You're reallyreally funny. God, help me to stick out like a sore thumb. cos this aint home. kick me when i get too comfortable, please.
goodbye
9:38 PM