bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Friday, August 11
fear drives you
fear restrains you
fear does not bother you.
i fear everything there is to be afraid of. i fear sickness. i fear pain. i fear going blind deaf lame. i fear rejection. i fear acceptance. i fear fire. i fear that one day i'd walk into the kitchen and the microwave oven explodes. i fear radiation. i fear cancer.
i've written too many 'fear's, now it looks funny.
it sounds funny too
i fear putting my all into doing something, only to find that it aint worth a thing. i fear people dying. i fear eternity. i fear anger. i fear sharks. i fear snakes. i fear for my faith. i fear for my character. i fear for my integrity. i fear for the sincerity of my apologies. i fear for my grades. i fear for the fear for my grades. i fear giving for wrong reasons. i fear volcanoes. i fear earthquakes. i fear the bombs people strap to their waists. i fear atomic bombs. i fear war. i fear torture methods, especially the one they put a metal slab in fire, and place it on your skin. i fear being a stumbling block. i fear being self-centred. i fear that you will read this, and judge me. i fear rational fear. i fear irrational fear. i fear temptation. i fear seeking comfort in things that do not give. i fear questions i cannot answer. i fear that my family will fall apart.
i sing the song,
the world behind me, the cross before me.
i fear the day someone demands i choose again.
and i turn around.
goodbye
12:54 PM