bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Wednesday, August 16
i'm tired of this rat race.
tired of the guilt
because i took an afternoon nap
because i read a magazine
because i got tired of white, and did this.
(not that guilt works, everything happened anyway)
i didnt feel like explaining what the last post is all about.
so when grace asked, i went 'its just crap la'
an overactive imagination, an overstretched brain, an overflowing of rambles.
would these reasons suffice?
no they do not.
just why did i call it crap?
(chowsf explained how tides worked today. amazing, how everything works together. he explained the laws of physics behind it, not all of it because he said that it'll be over our heads. he didnt tell us the importance of tides to us. he didnt mention the importance of the perfect distance between us and the moon. as if laws of physics are not overwhelming enough.)
this is what the last post is about.
this is what i should do about the weariness and guilt.
this is how to make everything better, meaningful.
not mugging, learning.
not perfect grades, understanding.
not good-paying jobs which will make people go wow,
enjoyment/purpose/fulfillment
(if i could combine all this, that would be awesome. leaving only this question, why do i want them to go wow? what good would it do to me?)
i'm wrong, more often than not
goodbye
9:49 PM