bleahhh;
the last hurrah
& Thursday, September 14
i keep reminding myself not to think in negatives.
because of how the subconscious mind works. at least how i think my subconscious mind works. dont think of an elephant with 5 legs and green pokka dots! okay perhaps you have great control over your mind. but the image immediately pops into my head. ugh.
so 'dont stress' will not do for me. because i think of dont and stress as separate words. and somehow the dont gets lost along the way. for now, and till forever; it will be relaxx. it's hard to switch, many years of negatives make them a habit. think positive. positive positive positive. if i repeat it often, it'll be a habit too.
when the brain is wrung dry, no energy to think of positives. we're reduced to i'm good i'm good i'm good. not the i-will-ace-it i'm good. but rather the i-will-be-okay i'm good that all this will pass, and things will be fine in the end, despite the short run outcome.
then the fire fades away
most of everyday
it's full of tired excuses
it's too hard to say
i wish it were simple
but we give up easily
you're close enough to see that
you're the other side of the world to me
goodbye
9:10 AM